"different" is not always a bad thing...

They say everything happens for a reason right? Well why is it that some of the things we go through in life seem like such a waste of our time and by the end they all appear to be very pathetic? This whole second series of my life has put me through some serious ups and downs. I’ve basically almost been through it all. You couldn’t imagine. I have felt things and been through things that no teenage girl should have to go through, but crazy enough I’m thankful for it all. Even though there were many times when I wanted to just die or move a million miles away, I’m actually glad that I was able to go through each of those scenarios. They taught me things believe it or not. Sometimes they can all just seem like minor setbacks, which in reality they are, but if we didn’t have those setbacks then we wouldn’t be able to move forward. I have had a lot of people let me down throughout my eighteen years of life but in the end I always seem to come out on top, and on my caller id are the people that matter the most to me and never let me down no matter how much we’ve gone through. When you find people like that in your life, you need to make sure that you always keep them first. You need to hold on tight to them because you never know what life is going to throw at you, and you’re going to need someone there to listen who knows you, and knows your past. I feel very liberated these days. I’m in such a great place in my life. There are so many new things in the works for me. I am trying to not let myself fall back into habit, meaning; I want to be different. I like how I feel and how I think these days. Of course we are always going to have problems and little situations that make you want to just slump over and sleep the next few weeks, but over these past few days I’ve learned different ways of handling those situations. I no longer use the same old tactics that I did before to resolve those problems. By changing how I do things, it makes me feel like I actually learned something from my past, and that I am now ready to move on…I am ready to be different.